Merry Christmas Me!

A year ago tomorrow I said to myself that I would be at my goal weight for next Christmas and I’ll tell ya… I ‘failed’ miserably.

However, I have lost 7lbs which is a step in the right direction but to the detriment of a positive relationship with food.

I was going through old photos the other day and I found a before and after of me doing 30 days on The Body Coach. At the time, I thought there was a HUGE difference in my physique but looking at these photos showed barely any difference. However, I paraded the shores of Aruba on my honeymoon like I owned the gaff.

The difference? I’d taken a healthy approach and I was doing everything in my power to feel good about myself. I was working out, eating good foods (with the odd treat) and being kind to myself.

Aesthetic goals just don’t do it for me anymore. Sure it would be nice to look a certain way but as a motivator it’s about 1/10 to even get me started.

However FEELING good about myself appears to be a different ball game. At the moment my muscles hurt from being so weak. My poor posture gets me down and hurts my back even more. My glutes are a mess. My belly is bloated and my jeans dig in. And I’m spotty (which isn’t usual for me).

Don’t worry this article isn’t all doom and gloom. As a Christmas present to myself I have signed up for group coaching. As I’ve said before I know everything I could possibly know about weight loss – it’s just me standing in my way.

I plan to continue to stick with my behavioural changes but I’m hoping group coaching will just give me that extra bit of support that I’m clearly lacking. I’m fed up of the pressure of diets,.. I want a lifestyle that facilitates me feeling good about myself.

So I’m that note… Merry Christmas Me!

I hope you all have a fabulous festive period however you celebrate!

I Should Be Grateful to Have A Relationship with Food

One of my greatest bug bears of this year has been the response (good and bad) to diet culture.

I may not be ending 2019 where I intended to be (a different country to start with!) but I have been on a significant journey of self discovery.

I always intended to have a steady relationship with food and a balanced approach to nutrition, but not for one second did I think I’d end up in a such a funky mindset with food.

It is my fault to a certain extent by being persuaded by some uneducated plonkers on the internet, but I also blame the lack of gratitude the western world has for food.

It is so easy to forget that in some parts of the world they do not have access to food and clean water. Meanwhile we are too busy worrying about having too small a bum and not a flat enough stomach and taking this out on our relationship with the contents of our shopping trolley.

Now I’m not talking about people with eating disorders… that’s a whole different kettle of fish. But I’m talking about the influencers telling us to ditch one type of food and instead spend our money on something else that is fashionable at that very moment in time. Especially when it is driven by their financial gain. Cue #cyonidegate

Yesterday I complied fully with my no snacking/sit at the table rules and for something so simple it was so empowering. I gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted but it must fall within breakfast, lunch and dinner. If I was too full I could have whatever I’d wanted at the next meal.

It felt like such a grounded day with food. I did not overeat, I felt in control and I felt grateful that I had a fridge full of food to choose from.

I appreciate its only one day but the experience was so much more rewarding that seeing a number drop on the scales. My mind has become so consumed with the thought of foods (and my bank balance has become so empty signing up to every dieting plan there is) that it was nice to have a break.

Today I took the plunge and didn’t weigh out my breakfast. Scary stuff!

I appreciate it might sound a bit whacky to be ‘grateful’, but being introduced to daily gratitude was a life changing thing for me. At the time I was unemployed, looking at returning to live with my parents and it was putting a huge strain on my relationships. Being able to focus on the good in my life at the point stopped me from going under and 12 months later we are back on track.

I won’t let diet culture and social media influence me anymore. I am not against weight loss – I’m on a mission to shave a few inches off myself. But nor will I succumb to the games of diet culture and/or anti diet culture.

So there we have it! I’ll get off my soap box now!

Stop The Snacking

What I’m referring to is the mindless eating AKA “Cadbury’s Heroes gate”. This (and eating anywhere except the table) is my biggest vice. It’s what throws me off course and leads to me feeling preeettyyy rubbish about myself and where I end up going down the path of mindless munchies.

Firstly… if I’m absolutely ravenous then of course I’m going to have a snack. You only get one life and I’m certainly not going to make myself miserable by starving myself if I can help it.

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What I’m referring to is the mindless eating AKA “Cadbury’s Heroes gate”. This (and eating anywhere except the table) is my biggest vice. It’s what throws me off course and leads to me feeling preeettyyy rubbish about myself and where I end up going down the path of mindless munchies. It also gives me terrible indigestion (this would be a great place to insert an affiliate link to Gaviscon!!).

There will be exceptions to the rule e.g. the cinema, a picnic or a day at the beach. But on my general day to day living, the snacking is getting the chop.

There was a time where we were encouraged to eat more meals in a day. By default we are encouraged to have two snacks a day. It’s what is considered ‘best’ for us. Do we always need them? Probably not. Do we eat them anyway? Well I do. Sometimes even more than two snacks.

I personally think this a door into an unhealthy relationship with food. It allows me to associate food with emotions, boredom and stress. Would I choose to stress eat if I were to sit down at a table? Probably not. Would I choose to stress eat during an actual meal? Again, probably not. Would I boredom eat if I knew I had to go sit at a table? Unlikely.

I spend a lot of my time watching my husband (and not in a creepy way!). He has an excellent relationship with food. He also remains a stable weight with a very good body fat percentage. He rarely snacks and always eats at the table. He’s my evidence base if anyone asks.

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I’m going to attempt to stop snacking for 30 days and see what happens. Typically I don’t snack between breakfast and lunch but the rest of the time is currently free game. I normally don’t eat after 8PM because of indigestion but this could really do with being 7PM.

Now don’t fret. That’s all the behavioural changes I’ll be making this side of Christmas. It’s a bit of a weird Christmas this year as Tim is working most of it, my Mum is in hospital and it’s all a bit chaotic. We WILL be having a Christmas dinner but I don’t think there will be much else going on so I won’t need to worry about letting myself go too much. Even New Year will be quiet as Tim is working both New Year’s Eve AND New Year’s Day.

It will be the first Christmas in my 32 years of living that will be a bit of a nothing Christmas. Ah well, it happens to us all at some point.

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Mindful Eating – Take a Seat

The only thing I have to achieve today is to eat everything at the dinner table. That’s it.

As I am riddled with disease today and have somewhat lost my appetite, I thought it might be a good idea to introduce a new behaviour to my eating routine.

The only thing I have to achieve today is to eat everything at the dinner table. That’s it.

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PS That’s what my dinner looks like every night. I wish!

You see the thing is I only eat at the table once a day at a push. I tend to have my breakfast in the car, lunch at work, snacks in the car, dinner at the table (and even that can be hit and miss) and then more snacks whilst sitting on the sofa.

This does mean I will have to start getting up earlier to have breakfast at the table, have lunch at a table at work and forgo any snacking on the way home.

This seems such a simple yet effective way of making me focus on my food and make eating more of a conscious effort.

Now one could argue this is just implementing more rules around food, and yes it is. But instead of focusing instead of what’s on my plate I’m focusing on what I’m doing instead. My current way of eating isn’t working for me and it’s negatively impacting on my relationship with food. Surely, encouraging me to sit at the table to eat is a much more healthy approach than eliminating food groups or limiting my calories?

In the meantime I’m off to dose up on ibupofen and a wheat bag for my neck.