A Weekend Dedicated to Self-Care

On the face of it I have most certainly had a ‘lazy’ weekend. I’ve binge watched on Netflix like it’s going out of fashion, indulged in some tasty food and spent more time on the sofa than I care to disclose. I also downloaded some new songs of iTunes and bopped around my house til my heart’s content.

On the face of it I have most certainly had a ‘lazy’ weekend. I’ve binge watched on Netflix like it’s going out of fashion, indulged in some tasty food and spent more time on the sofa than I care to disclose. I also downloaded some new songs of iTunes and bopped around my house to my heart’s content.

In fact I was actually taking some time out from the world to regroup. Last week was hard – a couple of colleagues were experiencing quite significant mental health problems and I ended up involved with that (and I was already feeling overwhelmed with work). On Friday night I woke up and shared the remains of my dinner with the toilet. I was absolutely exhausted on Saturday with big black circles under my eyes and today I managed to develop a full blown cold within about 30 seconds. Clearly some things aren’t right.

One thing that I pride myself on (most of the time) is my ability to stop. One of the perks of having epilepsy I guess… My health is my priority. It’s not to say I don’t have my own mental health blips because I most definitely do… but I feel that despite being deprived to the core of Vitamin D, I’m doing pretty well on the whole.

I am also pretty good at being able to hand peoples problems back to them… I rarely take home what they disclose to me. But it’s a draining process (and I dread to think how draining it is for them), but I’m no good to anyone if I don’t look after myself.

So yes, it’s a ‘lazy’ weekend. Yes I’ve got square eyes and feel a bit rounder than on Friday but it was 100% worth it. We don’t always have to be productive ALL the time.

When It Becomes More Than Aesthetics

I’ll let you in on a little secret… this is my fourth attempt at running a health and wellbeing blog.

Each time I’d start one I’d think to myself ‘I’m in such a good place to preach and empower people on how to look after themselves’.

Ha!

In order to appear perfect for the internet (which is quite lolz when you think about it) I find that I am robotic because I have nothing to talk about. Because I’m not being myself.

I can’t preach (nor do I want to) because I’m in a place where I’ve borderline let myself go. I’m in no way at my heaviest but my muscle tone is non existent, my self esteem is on the floor and I’ve just been informed that I have new stretch marks. Recently my anxiety has been running rife and I’ve been having dreams that Tim keeps cheating on me. Ahh the female brain eh?!

I haven’t felt this rubbish about myself in years and it’s seriously not okay. I know it’s of my choosing. No one is forcing me to not exercise or to eat the cookie. There is seriously nothing to gain from this except misery and only I can change that.

I have decided to sign up to WW (aka Weightwatchers). I have signed up to their green plan as it makes sense to me and means I can eat what I want (obviously within their points system).

It’s not just about the food though. My posture has got so bad that I feel like I’m caving in on myself. My muscles are in agony and my husband said they feel like ‘rope’ because they’re so unhappy.

Finally I want to belong to something. I want to be in a position to make new friends.. if only it’s just online. Due to my aforementioned fake self, it’s hard to establish common ground when you’re not being yourself. Well that’s changing from now!

In the grand scheme of things this isn’t rock bottom, but in my little preventative health bubble I’ve hit the ground. The only thing I can do now is run.

Welcome to Simple Healthy Living

You should probably know that as I type this I am lying on the sofa in my PJs, with Tim (my husband) rubbing my feet and a tub of Cadbury’s Minitature Heroes by my side. Bliss right?

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On the flip side I’m also lying on the sofa with a sore big toe, a pending cold, controlled epilepsy, gallbladder-less, yeast intolerant and I have some very sore muscles from being in quite a sedentary job and not doing much exercise. I’m also lying on said sofa with approximately 40% body fat and with borderline low bone density.

And this my friends, is the inspiration for setting up Simple Healthy Living. I have spent the past (almost) 20 years on endless diets (with only some success) and have found that the more information I gather on weight loss, the more confusing it becomes. Well, the basics aren’t confusing – calories in versus calories out and strength training.

Social media would have you believe that it’s anything but calories in versus calories out. It’s food type, body type, exercise type, hormonal imbalances, food addiction, intermittent fasting, low calorie, high calorie, in the middle calorie. Basically anything but a calorie deficit that aids weight loss.

Yet every diet group and social media influencer drives a hard sales pitch with great success and as a result I have spent the last 18 months spiralling into the deepest pits of diet culture hell.

And quite frankly, I’ve had enough.

I’m bored of spending money on diet plans, bored of being a sheep and most importantly bored of dieting.

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Now don’t get me wrong… I’m also wary of the Health At Every Size movement and think that in due course it will come back to bite certain individuals on their derriere. But that’s a discussion for another time.

The biggest focus on this website will be on the word ‘simple’. I need to reduce my body fat (I’m fortunate that I’m not overly fussed about the numbers on the scales), I need to build my strength, I need to manage my stress and I need to introduce more hobbies into my life.

I don’t want to ‘eat clean’ all the time – moderation is definitely key. There’s room for both kale and cookies here (although I’m not mad for a cookie but you know what I mean!).

So please, take a seat, sit back and relax and enjoy the simplicity!